Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Okay, I can't stay away from the blogging game, but since I'll have a new last name here soon, I've got to be honest with you:

Marian was a pseudonym; my real name is Michelle. My last name isn't important, but it's going to be Jorgenson, which is what counts.

So, soon enough you'll be able to find me at:


See you there!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Leaving the Blogosphere

I haven't written much in a while, and I've found that for this season of life, that's what works.

I've enjoyed blogging; I've enjoyed getting to know some wonderful ladies; I've enjoyed exchanging ideas and building others up in Christ.

Even though I haven't written much, I've put a lot of mental energy and time into the internet in general. I think that there are other places that I need to put my time and energy into, and I'm happy to do so--relieved even. I couldn't sleep tonight, prayed over all of this, and felt an urgent peace about wrapping all of this up.

This blog will be up for another week, long enough for me to store what I want to keep and allow others to see that I'm leaving. Email me if you'd like to keep in touch as I'll be changing my email address soon, too, getting a new last name and all.

It's been a good run, but I want to press on to what (for me and the path God has put me on) is better.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I'm happy with the table setting!

So, I haven't written in a while. Sorry about that, but I am back after a quick hiatus to set up LibrarianMarian.net and will write on both as I please.

And today, it pleases me to share photos with you! I did a lot of running around town and comparing flowers and buying tableware and brainstorming. Keep in mind, we are on a budget which means paper and plastic instead of linen and glass. I don't mind it: nobody's going to remember their plate; they're going to remember the day and my dress and how happy we were and the funny things that went wrong and...everything but the tablecloths and plates.

I get a bit discouraged watching wedding shows sometimes--with their gown budgets that dwarf our entire budget--but then I see things like the Josh and Anna Duggar wedding, and I am so relieved that other people keep it financially simple but still completely enjoy the day. And that's the point: we're in it for a marriage, not just a wedding day.

So here are the centerpieces: mason jars wrapped in tissue paper and would you believe that's just $2 worth of flowers from Wal-Mart?

Now, the tables will actually be long banquet tables put together, so the centerpieces will repeat every two place settings, but this is about what it will look like from the end:

Don't mind the yardstick; this is a square table, and the yardstick shows where 30" is for the banquet tables. Oh, and those brown things are malted milk balls, but the cupcake holders will actually hold white, lavender, and purple m&m's.

The food will be brought to the tables and served family style. On the menu: ham sandwiches (represented by English muffins below), crudites with dill dip (fruit below; plus we're serving the tip in hollowed out green peppers), and a summer berry plate (also fruit below).

Mom doesn't think that this along with homemade mints, the m&m's, cake, and sparkling lemonade won't be enough to feed our guests. If this were dinnertime, I'd agree. But it's 3 o'clock in the afternoon! Most people have a candy bar or an apple for a midafternoon snack, so I'm sure they'll be fine. Besides, the reception is three blocks from the church so it's not like they'll work up a huge appetite or anything.

Whadda ya think? I'd love any comments! My favorite part? No dishes to wash! :D

Monday, February 16, 2009

New Blog!

I am very pleased to announce...

I have a new blog!

Librarian Marian is a place where I will discuss books that I am reading and give tips on everything from squeezing more books into your life to increasing your writing productivity to getting more out of your visit to your local library.

Basically, if it has to do with reading or writing (or words in general), it'll be at LibrarianMarian.net and I created a Twitter account just for it.

I hope you'll stop by!

Friday, February 13, 2009

True Beauty Radiates

I have always struggled with body image. I hate my thighs, I hate that my feet are so different, I hate-hate-hate my nose, I hate that I have big, thick gymnast arms...the list goes on and on.

For the most part, I've gotten over these issues; they only come up when I try on clothes.

And actually have to see myself in the mirror in my skivvies.

And realize just how imperfect this body of mine is.

So, while trying on dresses yesterday for "fun," all of those thoughts--like voices--about my body came flooding back, the voices that used to scream at me as I chewed up food and spit it out into the garbage can. The voices that used to push me to go just one more mile. The voices that used to keep me from letting anybody in. They weren't screaming this time, but I could hear the murmurs begin the way that the whispering in classrooms does.

I ditched the dresses and headed over to Payless, since shoes were my mission for that shopping trip anyway. The shoes were easy enough to find and choose: the mirrors only show up to your ankles. I left the store with my purchases under my arm and

"Marian?" I heard from somewhere beyond my periphery. I turned around to see a woman from Jay's church. Peggy and I haven't talked much before, but I know her by sight: my height, glasses, brownish hair, freckles, overweight but happy--thrilled, actually. She sings some Sundays, and I was there when she and her husband dedicated their little girl to the Lord; Peggy absolutely beamed.

"Say, Jay's parents were at my place last night, and I realized that I went to high school with your uncle!" she told me, one eye on me the other on the dripping ice cream cone in her hand and her wandering toddler (only mothers can focus on so many things at once).

I laughed at the coincidence: everybody seems to know my family. Just as I was about to ask if she knew my dad, she piped up, "I'm so impressed by you and Jay. You're being very responsible and not choosing a big, fancy wedding. That's really encouraging to see."

Her words were full of warmth and sincerity. I wondered for a moment if she ever wasn't warm and sincere, sweet and kind; I wondered how she responded to seeing her imperfect body in the dressing room mirror.

Then it dawned on me: Peggy is beautiful. Her sweetness and kindness, her warmth and sincerity, her willingness to open her home in fellowship make Peggy beautiful in a way that dresses and shoes and any man-made product cannot.

I didn't try on any more clothing that day, but I have a feeling that I would have been far more forgiving with myself if I had. Sure, a woman can be beautiful when she puts on a pretty dress, but a woman is beautiful regardless when it radiates from within.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

HE'S IN!!!!


Hearing back two days after interviews?! Absolutely crazy...and I had just given the whole thing to God: I worried all morning, tossing around the what-ifs and what-are-our-other-options and the panic that ensues because of the economy. Then, I stopped on the stairs and just gave all of my worry and speculation and expectation to God, because it was all in His hands anyway.

And then he put tears in my eyes and thunder in Jay's heart by affirming that this is the next step for us, that we really can start planning our future because we know the next step.

I wonder if I hadn't worried so much if we'd have heard sooner? Who knows...well, God knows, and that's all that matters!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Valentine's, Valentine's...

Oh, how I use to loathe thee.

I dreaded Valentine's Day all through high school, because I didn't have anybody to share it with. And it's a Hallmark holiday.

But now? *Sigh* It's difficult not to get caught up in the pinks and the reds and the chocolates...especially since I spent the afternoon with my cousin making his Valentine's box for school. Jay called while we were making it and said--more sincerely than I'd have imagined--that he missed making those.

So guess what? I'm going to pull together a couple of shoe boxes by Friday when he comes home for the weekend so that we can decorate them. Plus, I'm going to fill his with little candies and love notes.

But don't tell him!!

It may be a Hallmark holiday, and it may make shallow a deep commitment, but it is still an opportunity to demonstrate to this man that I care for him and think of him while he's away.

I'll take any opportunity like that I can get!

Just curious...what do people in the evangelical world think of Valentine's Day? I guess I've never really found out...